If you recall...I wrote this a few weeks ago. Here is an excerpt from that post...
Ok...ready for another turn of thoughts.
This isn't regarding growing our family, but just in general.
I have had a stirring lately that after this next year there is going to be some big
changes in our life and I just want to be open to them. What does that mean...I'm not
sure. But I'm trying to be open and willing in all areas of my life to just see God move
and do His thing. My mind keeps going back and forth between the desires of this world
and the desires of God's heart.
Sometimes its hard to differentiate between the two.
I'm trying to listen.
And since that time God has revealed some pretty big changes and opportunities in our life. I'm not really ready to discuss them on here...but how exciting! The point I want to communicate...is that some of those answers and revelations from God working in our life aren't exactly what I expected. Actually not AT ALL what I expected! And He still seems so silent in all the ways I had been praying for Him to work in. And that is okay. I am seeking and listening and praying. And its a beautiful place to be!
I am discovering how much trust is needed in every part of life. And so many times the communion with God and trust in Him is the much more important part than the outcome.
This includes all areas of my life ---The really big things. But also the little things (that usually end up being the big things)...like trying to teach my boys to be kind and respectful. Or remembering to love and put my spouse above myself. I try so hard to teach my boys to think of and serve one another above themselves...but so often Matt gets home from a 10 or 11 hour day at work and all I want to do is tell him all about my day and have him help me. He always does...because he is great at putting me before himself. And I want to do that for him. And for my kids. And for my friends. But its hard! Or maybe its just me that struggles with this? :)
Eli told me this week ..."Mommy, I love laying in my bed for a little bit before I go to sleep so I can talk to God and listen to him and play with him too." Cute, right....but it kind of smacked me in the face too. Boy, do I need to make sure I have times to be quiet and still and listen and talk to my God too. I love how often God uses my son to speak to me.
I hope you read my husbands post earlier this week...I must say that I have had some big changes just this week in my prayer life too! I just find myself trying to commune more and pray about the things I believe represent God's heart and character more.
All this to say ---God is working in my life. It is comforting and exciting to feel near to Him. There have been so many dry seasons that I do not feel that ---where I feel so far away and lonely from the Heart of God. And I'm sure many of you feel far from him now...and thats okay to admit and say. And I will be sending you a virtual hug and a prayer that He would reveal Himself to you where you're at.
Where do you see and know him to be working in your life?
Psalms 13:5
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.
3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him and he will do this:
6 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
your vindication like the noonday sun.
7 Be still before the LORD
and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Psalms 37: 3-7
2 comments:
I see it all the time. He isn't subtle when working his will when it comes to my life. I guess he thinks I need to be slapped in the face with it so I know that I am not in control. I'm okay with that. It's a powerful thing to see his hand doing great things in my life in such obvious ways.
So glad you are learning! God teaches me a lot through my kids.
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